tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45373250883056661132024-03-16T01:08:10.157-06:00A JOURNEY WORTH TAKINGFinding MyselfAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.comBlogger290125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-20832147602423716812013-09-24T14:12:00.002-06:002013-09-24T14:12:37.907-06:00Thoughts from a Disillusioned Athlete <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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Challenging The Stereotypes of Athletes
and Physical Activity.
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When I started getting fit and active
in the past year, I've started noticing stereotypes being thrown
around based on the certain physical activity I decided to
participate in. Whether it was yoga, lifting weights, swimming,
boxing, running, or climbing, there is this apparent stigma and
persona associated with each sport and I thought it would be
interesting to examine what I see as stereotypes, and how I don't fit
into any of these, but maybe all three simultaneously.
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I would first like to separate them
into 3 different athletic categories.</div>
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Yuppy/Outdoor Athlete</div>
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Olympic Style Performer and
Competitor</div>
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Body Power-House Athlete</div>
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Number 1 is pretty easy to stereotype.
Most of these people involve themselves in outdoor activities,
whether it be rock climbing, hiking, running, cycling, skiing, or
snow shoeing and yoga . Wear very similar clothes, typically North
face, Lululemon, Mountain Hardware and REI.
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Number 2 is also very easy to
stereotype. They focus on what they are good at, they strive to
compete against a number of people but have one goal in mind, to win.
They not only challenge themselves, but are very competitive with
anyone who may presume better at their sport than they are. They
usually stick to one sport. Either they are swimmers, runners, or
cyclists typically speaking. They usually wear Nike, Adidas, or Puma,
or any other major sports brand.
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Number 3 is a little harder to
identify. Most die hard bodybuilders or MMA sport athletes, (yes I
know its also an olympic sport too) do compete with others. But they
also focus on their own physique and how to gain more muscle, or work
on their fighting techniques. Many of these people tend to fall
under the title of being meat-heads, in other words, they don't think
about anything else but building muscle or their next fight.
Tattooed, tanned/dark skinned people with a tough attitude is what
they wear most.
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I think many people can identify
themselves into one group or the other. However, I am having a really
hard time doing that for myself. When I got into shape and started
getting really active in many things, I was drawn to several
different sports. I gravitated to yoga and kickboxing, where
according to these two typical stereotypes, they are worlds apart.
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I also love to lift weights, but before
that I was a real die-hard yogi. In between sports, I was challenging
myself to run a 5K. I got really fast. I also equally enjoy rock
climbing and challenge myself every time I climb. But you see, all of
these are in different categories. I didn't just pick a sport to see
to if I fit into that category.
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The general rule of thumb is if you
practice yoga, you must become a yogi and adopt everything that has
to do with yoga as your dogma of belief. Same goes for weight
lifting, if I am caught lifting weights, people automatically assume
I am a meat-head. Maybe, that title is thrown towards the male sect
of humanity, but its still a large assumption that just because you
enjoy a particular sport, you are categorized automatically to fit
into that certain group and wear that persona.
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I could see the argument come up about
why you are practicing a certain sport. My reason's vary, but its
usually because I get bored quickly, and I love being active and
trying different/new things. Plus my main reasoning isn't to compete
with the next best athlete, but to challenge myself and to stay in
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I love practicing yoga because it gives
me a sense of groundedness and focus, and when I weight lift, it
gives me a sense of strength and perseverance. When I run, it gives
me bursts of energy like nothing else. When I kick box, it relieves
stress and gives me strength. When I climb, it has helped me overcome
my fear of heights and challenges me to climb harder.</div>
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As far as my clothing and persona goes,
I have a plethora of brands in my closet. From Nike and Adidas, to
REI and Northface. I have one tattoo on my foot, and I am white as
they come. I tend to be a jack of all trades in what I enjoy and
pursue in physical activity. And I beg to differ that I must or have
to pick one sport to get really good at. Its just not my style. Nor
is putting labels on people and throwing them in boxes....
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I am writing this for people who may
have also struggled with the stereotypes that come with staying
active, and perhaps have given people caution to pursue certain
activities because the pressure to perform and compete is very
demanding, or what it may look to others. I challenge those who put
people in typical boxes to reconsider your limitations to exploring
new and exciting ways to stay in shape.
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Sincerely, One Disillusioned Athlete. </div>
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-80336617530310544072013-03-26T16:44:00.000-06:002013-03-26T16:49:16.542-06:00Fear Is Not Real - Free Falling Into Something Deep<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I don't know if this is just a season
in my life, which I sure hope that it lasts a lot longer than just a
season, but for the first time in my life I feel like fear isn't the
dominating force that prevents me from taking risks or trying
something new. I feel set free from fear's grip that has sucked the life
out of me for so long. I actually feel like for once in my life, I am
actually living. I have dived head first into things that I have
never thought I could do or even try. The fear of the unknown,
something new, something unfamiliar to me would usually make me tuck
my tail and run the opposite direction.
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I read a quote the other day that spoke
volumes.
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“You must realize, that fear is not
real. It's a product of thoughts you create. Do not misunderstand me,
danger is very real, but fear is a choice.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Fear is really just a thought I choose
to give control over to. I have allowed it to prevent me from trying
new things, or exploring new territory in which case I have put a
stop to. Lately, I have tried rock climbing for the first time since
I was a teenager. I fell in love with it. It makes me want to do it
more. Its crazy but ever since I started lifting weights, my upper
body can really pull me up and I just keep going. Its something
that I plan on doing a lot more this summer. I have some really good
friends that LOVE to rock climb, and I hope to participate in that
activity. Another sport that I have recently
got involved in is Kickboxing. It's incredible how motivating and
physically stimulating this is. Learning the techniques and stances
is probably the most challenging, plus remembering the names of the
moves, but, its really something that I love. Its like my favorite
thing to do. Its so strange, but I never ever imagined me getting
into stuff like this before. I was never physically active or in
sports growing up, so all of this, even the gym life that I have is
very new to me. Being in shape and in good health is new to me in and
of itself. Maybe that has given me incentive to pursue things that I
have never really thought I could pursue up until this point!
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Brene Brown, who is a Vulnerability
researcher who I have talked about here before has really been
speaking to me in the last several months. She has a book called,
Daring Greatly. She has spoken life to me through her books and
speeches that she has given. She says, <span style="color: black;">"Vulnerability
is our most accurate measurement of courage.” I really find that
quote to be very true in my life these days. I've had the courage to
embrace physical activities, along with confronting people in my life
with some tough feelings that I needed to address. This has also
given me the opportunity to take a really good look inside myself and
allow myself to let some very painful experiences go for good... It's
like the pain from the past has held me captive for so long and I was
so afraid to open those doors and really take a good look at them
because I was afraid of the pain that would lead right after the
first glance. Its really freeing to let go of the past, but what I
have found through all of this is it has primarily let go of me. </span>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">People
tell me that I wear my heart on my sleeve. I admit, its scary at
times, but I no longer live by fear, but by that which drives it out! </span>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-85740842092948256432013-03-23T20:23:00.003-06:002013-03-23T20:23:22.445-06:00 I Am What I Am - OceanLab<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;">I know you've read</span></div>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
So many books</div>
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You keep a breast of all the things you think you should</div>
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You've got your own home grown philosophy</div>
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And it works for you</div>
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But please don't try to make it work for me</div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
You have nothing to prove</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
But you're trying much too hard</div>
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Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I am what I am (I am what I am...)</div>
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No I don't need you to save me (I don't need you to save me...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I am what I am (I am what I am...)</div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I don't want you to show me (I don't need you to show me...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
Just know who I am (Just know who I am...)</div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
Just know who I am...</div>
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Just know who I am...</div>
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I know you feel</div>
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You need to prove</div>
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That you are good at something</div>
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Everything you try to do</div>
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And people have on your every word</div>
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That you deliver</div>
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With conviction</div>
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Though they may just be absurd</div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
Leave your armor behind</div>
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Free your vulnerable mind</div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I am what I am (I am what I am...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
No I don't need you to save me (I don't need you to save me...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I am what I am (I am what I am...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I don't want you to show me (I don't need you to show me...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand...)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)</div>
</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"><div style="text-align: center;">
Just know who I am (Just know who I am...)</div>
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Just know who I am...</div>
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</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-29416505933165683002013-02-24T22:12:00.001-07:002013-02-24T22:12:10.840-07:00Yuna - Live Your Life<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I
thought sharing my weight loss and healthy lifestyle journey may
somehow encourage those who may have struggles in this part of their
lives as I have in the past. Not only that, but we all could use a
pick me up now and again through others experiences and stories,
which I hope this delivers that for you in some way or another.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Growing
up I never really was athletic. Being homschooled in rural New Mexico
never really rendered to the possibilities of sports or constant
physical activities. So, needless to say I've never viewed myself as
outgoing in a physical way. I did play outside, hike and that sort of
thing, but I guess being 'active' wasn't always something that came
easy for me or something that I naturally leaned towards. I didn't
really wrestle with my weight up until I was in my early 20's. I
think I just liked to eat and eventually as I aged, my metabolism
slowed and the weight gradually came on. I was at my heaviest of 160
pounds last summer. I wouldn't have ever considered myself obese, but
I was definitely not in a healthy place. I had low energy all the
time. I didn't care what I put in my body. It was all about
convenience and cheap food that I choose. I just didn't have the
drive or the motivation to really care about my well being. Like
many, I had tried other diets, Weight Watchers, low carb diets
ext.... However, those were only short term diets that never lasted.
I think I lost about 20 pounds on Weight Watchers several years back,
but the minute I stepped out of line with the program, the weight
came back on pretty much right away. So, that was a downer. I think
for me what really worked was the combo of both exercise and
appropriate eating habits. I really hate calling what I did a diet or
a quick fix from being heavier. Rather, it has become a
transformative life change from the inside out. Trust me when I say, losing weight didn't happen over night, nor was it a walk in the park. It took more dedication and determination that I even had to make it to where I am today. It really was a change of heart and mindfulness.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It
all started for me last summer. June of 2012 to be exact. I don't
know if I had an epiphany one morning when I woke up or what. I
started noticing many individuals in my life during the time that had
this immaculate determination to get healthy. As unnatural as that
kind of lifestyle was to me, needless to say, it was contagious. I
wanted to change my physical appearance and that became a huge push
in the beginning. Then it became more about being mindful in how
these new healthy foods and fitness lifestyle made me feel.
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My
body stopped craving sugar and fatty greasy foods after sometime. I
normally focused on eating a lot of hummus, whole wheat flatbreads
and all the veggies in the world. I would eat some chicken but stayed
away from dark red meats. I turned to boca burgers for my protein. I
guess if I had to name this eating habit, it would be called the
Mediterranean diet. Where olives, basil, hummus and veggies were on
my plate in every meal except breakfast. Breakfast foods became
essential to my success of my goals. I would never miss breakfast and
would only eat either greek yogurt or fat-free yogurt with a little
granola and fresh fruit, and/or multi-grain oatmeal with a little
honey for sweetness and fresh fruit, blueberries, raspberries, and
blackberries. I would just cook the oatmeal with water, and no added
sugar or cream. I got used to eating it this way and I love it. I
still eat my oatmeal like this. Instead of honey, I have switched to
agave nectar. Little changes in the way I eat have made all the
difference for me. Portions even of this kind of food made a huge
difference. Suddenly, the weight started falling off. I found a lot
of awesome healthy recipes on Pinterest and also many different
substitutes were found for butter, milk products and the like. I
replaced butter completely out of my diet and cooked with Olive Oil
instead.
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But I
have realized from diets and trying to lose weight in the past that I
could not do this without exercise. So I began to walk about 3-5
miles a day, EVERY DAY. I think in the course of 2 months, I missed
like 3-5 days of walking/jogging. It was summer, so it made it a lot
easier for me to get out and walk. I was working a lot during the
summer too, which made it complicated to find the time, but I was so
dedicated to walking that I would get it in my day somehow. I was
determined to get at least over 2 miles in a day regardless if I had
the energy or not. My motivation turned into increasing my
metabolism, which after time my body craved and earned that time to
walk/jog. That made it easier as well to find the energy to get out
and move. It became just apart of my every day routine and if I
didn't get out, something was missing in my day and that alone kept
me going! During the summer months I also dedicated to going to yoga
at least 3 times a week. I would actually go like 5 times a week
because it was my stress reliever and it really helped me increase my
focus to lose weight. In September, I joined a local gym. I had a
friend who's hobby was lifting weights. Lifting weights was very
foreign to me and completely took me out of my comfort zone, but she
motivated me to give it a shot and she coached me through it, and she
has been my gym buddy ever since. We now have a weekly workout
routine that I hardly miss. Its such an important part of my life
that I can't go through the week without going to the gym at least 6
times. Mon/Wed/Fri I lift weights, Tues/Thurs/Sat. I focus on cardio.
Sunday, I usually take off unless I already had taken a day off
during the week then I will switch it out.
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When
I started this lifestyle, I was 160 pounds as of June 1<sup>st</sup>
2012. I now weigh 115 pounds. I am currently in the process of just
maintaing my weight and toning my figure. It's been such a great
experience for me and I refuse to ever go back to where I was before.
That is not an option for me. I've always wanted to be skinny, but to
me its more than that now. Its a way of life. A way to live
wholeheartedly well in what I consume and how I treat my body.
Learning new things about healthy eating and fitness has really
broaden my horizons, life and hopefully lends to inspiration for
others.</span></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">In a dream I am crawling on my knees</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">All the people surround me</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I try so hard to breathe</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Suddenly they are turning into trees</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">The streets become the sea</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">and it carries me.</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I make a wish that the magic in my head</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Could flow into my world</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Tears turn into pearls and satellites</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I'm alright</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">You shelter me</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">When nothing's as it seems</span></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">You shelter me.</span></span></i></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; line-height: 19px;"><b><i>when the world changes to the place so cold<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />i wonder if i could be your mirror<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />these days they say that no man is an island<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />but when i dream of who we were i slip away<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />like the pages of the book i'd never get to write<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />on the eastside of the city<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />where the ink is running dry<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />and if you love me like you say<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />take this book and burn the page<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />the rain will wash away the ashes<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />On the eastside of my heart<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />tomorrow when your eyes are growing old<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />and your reflection starts to turn so cold<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />i wonder if i could be your mirror<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />and together we could crack and break forever<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />like the pages of the book i'd never get to write<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />on the eastside of the city<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />where the ink is running dry<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />and if you love me like you say<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />take this book and burn the page<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />the rain will wash away the ashes<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />On the eastside of my heart</i></b></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-58432554182745603612013-02-08T10:06:00.000-07:002013-02-08T10:06:12.580-07:00Marvel <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">There comes a time in my writing
process where I need to distinguish between the searching/seeking
part in which to write, and what to record what I have found. In a
sense its like switching gears. I wonder why my curiosity never seems
to be satisfied with what is given in just one day. Most days are
dull with necessity, but I have days like today that the flow of
fulfillment and meaning in my life is unending. But, what do I do
with all these check marks and absolutes? And though each and every
part of what I am finding has meaning and connection, my problem lies
with finding ways to articulate it with simple words. When my heart
is empty or I feel alone in life, I look for meaning in everything.
This isn't necessarily helpful or good, but its what I do in order to
cope. When I am searching, I am looking for direction and a path that
I can be certain of. When I find meaning behind what is happening in
my life, I'm looking for the big picture through the confines of
words and their definitions, lyrics of songs, movies, phrases, signs.
Anything that seems to literally grab my mind from reality to
consider the possibility of what that could mean in my reality. I'm
sure if you are a frequent visitor to my blog, you were wondering why
I bombard my page with these music videos or songs. Its because I
find meaning that is expressed perfectly through the lyrics that can
only be explained through them. My meager attempt to explain always
fails and disappoints my focus. The thought process becomes
intrenched with the deep longing for direction and right perceptions.
Many of my experiences in processing information on the (right) or
(wrong) scale of things, always leaves a void because of the loud/self-critic lack of approval and acceptance that comes to the forefront of
my mind, which in the long run defeats the entire point of writing
and processing this information in the first place. Two major
thoughts that I have held onto for the past couple of weeks are: I
cannot own anybody's problems but my own. And, the past does not own
me. </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-27209609880247466182013-02-07T16:17:00.002-07:002013-02-07T16:17:50.323-07:00Identity Thief <br />
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The movie Limitless comes to mind.
Bradley Cooper, who plays the main character runs across this drug
that has the capacity to make him tap into the fabrics of his entire
brain at one time. The basis of this movie is seeing what happens
when we chase and capture mindful-wealth and material wealth. Thus,
the repercussions and consequences of such choices conclude to bad
outcomes. I find that this movie has great meaning into my life. One
way I can relate to this story is how he struggles with his lack of
motivation, inspiration and clarity in his writing career, thus
leaving him feeling useless and hitting dead-ends at every turn. When
I am writing, I run into these road blocks all the time. If only I
could find that ONE thing that would trigger some kind of undisclosed
brilliance that is waiting to pour out of me at any given time. Or if
I could take a PILL that would fulfill my every need, desire and
longing. Though, on this earth, I can't really believe that this is
possible. Sure, its possible to find happiness with what we have and
where we are, but, as much as I think I'm happy and find fulfillment
in what I have or what I am in pursuit of, I have this great void in
my soul for something that this world cannot give. I know from a
God-knowing perspective, I haven't let God take me for who I am and
be my everything. Sometimes I think my past and religious experiences
growing up have tainted my perception of who God is in my life, and
through this, I've lost my identity. I have forgotten who I am and
where I belong. A sense of lost belonging has replaced me. But, I
always go back to the reminder that I no longer live in my past, and
those times no longer have the power that they once had in my life.
Every time I visit there, I forget who God see's when he looks at me.
Why do sour memories and recurring emotions penetrate to the
surface? Feelings of shame, inadequacy, imperfection, guilt and
emptiness seem to crouch on my heart leaving me suffocating and
helpless. Is there any way to take back what is mine?</div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><b>We'll build a fortress<br />To keep them out<br />And in a world gone silent<br />I'll be your sound<br /><br />Meet me tonight here<br />I know we're gotta run away<br />Leaving the old fear<br />Looking for a new place<br /><br />I can feel a storm near<br />The dream won't go away<br />So meet me tonight dear<br />And we'll run into a new day<br /><br />And through it all<br />I'm on your side now<br />I'm on your side now<br /><br />CHORUS:<br />We'll build a fortress<br />To keep them out<br />And in a world gone silent<br />I'll be your sound<br />And if they try to hurt you<br />I'll tear them down<br />I'm always with you now</b></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-35999770268215470072013-02-07T14:22:00.000-07:002013-02-07T14:22:28.393-07:00Disarm Yourself - Dash Berlin Ft. Emma Hewitt<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><b>Disarm yourself<br />Release the fear<br />Disarm yourself<br />And hold me near,<br />Now...<br /><br />Give yourself to me<br />Give yourself to me<br />Give yourself to me<br /><br />Disarm yourself<br />Release the fear<br />Disarm yourself<br />And hold me near<br />Now...<br /><br />Don't you miss yourself<br />And all you used to change<br />it always ends (it always ends)<br /><br />You keep on running backwards<br />Keep on chasing your own demons<br />Slip away to another hour<br />And let me in...<br /><br />Disarm yourself<br />Release the fear<br />Disarm yourself<br />And hold me near<br />Now...<br />Give yourself to me<br />Give yourself to me<br />Give yourself to me<br /><br />Disarm yourself<br />Release the fear<br />Disarm yourself<br />And hold me near<br />Now...</b><b><br /></b></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana;"><b>We can make it through these hard times<br />Dance our tears away<br />We can find our way into the light<br />Dance our tears away<br /><br />When everything just falls apart<br />We all stumble in the dark<br />& you feel out of place<br />Let's dance our tears away<br />Dance our tears away<br />Let's dance our tears away<br /><br />Woa woa woa<br />Dance our tears away<br />woa<br />So what do you say?<br />woa<br />Let's dance our tears away<br /><br />We can rise when we are beaten down<br />Dance our tears away<br />We can turn it all around<br />Dance our tears away<br /><br />When everything just falls apart<br />We all stumble in the dark<br />& you feel out of place<br />Let's dance our tears away....................<br /><br />Let's dance our tears away<br />woa woa woa<br />Dance our tears away<br />woa woa woa<br />Let's dance our tears away<br /><br />-ah ah ah ah ah -<br />-ah ah ah ah ah -<br />-ah ah ah ah ah -<br />-ah ah ah ah ah -<br />-ah ah ah ah ah -<br />-ah ah ah ah ah -<br />-ah ah ah ah ah -<br /><br />Let's dance our tears away<br />woa woa woa<br />Dance our tears away<br />woa woa woa<br />Let's dance our tears away<br />oh oh oh away<br />Dance our tears away<br />woa<br />So what do you say?<br />woa<br />Let's dance our tears away</b><b><br /></b></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">The sun hits like a bullet of faith<br /></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">And then suddenly I'm wide awake<br /></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Fake bliss, our apologies made<br /></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Was an enemy with no escape<br /><br />My hands were tied<br /></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">But now they're not<br /></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">So grab on to desire and run away<br /><br />These will be the years<br /></span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-89361128283098382442013-02-05T18:44:00.003-07:002013-02-05T18:44:44.638-07:00Spectrum - Ft. Matthew Koma<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Into the night<br />Desperate and broken<br />The sound of a fight<br />Father has spoken<br /><br />Oh<br /><br />We were the kings and queens of promise<br />We were the victims of ourselves<br />Maybe the children of a lesser God<br />Between Heaven and Hell<br />Heaven and Hell<br /><br />Into your eyes<br />Hopeless and taken<br />We stole our new lives<br />Through blindness<br />In defense of our dreams<br />In defense of our dreams<br /><br />We were the Kings and Queens of promise<br />We were the victims of ourselves<br />Maybe the Children of a lesser God<br />Between Heaven and Hell<br />Heaven and Hell<br /><br />The age of man is over<br />A darkness comes at dawn<br />These lessons that we've learned here<br />Have only just begun<br /><br />We were the Kings and Queens of promise<br />We were the victims of ourselves<br />Maybe the Children of a Lesser God<br />Between Heaven and Hell<br /><br />We are the Kings<br />We are the Queens<br />We are the Kings<br />We are the Queens </span></b></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-23875463747912700102013-01-30T23:53:00.000-07:002013-01-30T23:53:11.280-07:00Florence/Mark Knight - You've Got The Love<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands
up in the air</div>
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I know I can count on you</div>
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Sometimes I feel like saying, Lord I
just don't care</div>
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You've got the love I need to see me
through</div>
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Sometimes it seems the road is just to
rough</div>
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Everything goes wrong no matter what I
do</div>
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Now and then seems like life is just
too much</div>
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You've got the love I need to see me
through</div>
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When food is gone, you are my daily
need</div>
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When friends are gone, I know my Savior
is alive</div>
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He's real, you know its real</div>
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You've got the love,
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You've got the love,
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You've got the love,</div>
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Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands
up in the air</div>
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Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands
up in the air</div>
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Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands
up in the air</div>
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I know I can count on you</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-48228849830039487722013-01-25T15:04:00.002-07:002013-01-25T15:04:29.989-07:00Shattered
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The moments come when all that remains
is brokenness. The strive for finding the reason's why are much
deeper and unimaginably out of our reach. There are things in my life
that I have done that has enabled some of this to come to pass, but,
those are outside sources. Who knows what the hell planted those
seeds deep inside my soul that are much larger than anything that I
have done or will do. The spirit is screaming for release when all
its left with is broken pieces. Its strange though, through all of
this broken discovery, I feel more alive. I sense it being more than
what I can comprehend. This may not make any damn sense, but learning
to accept myself in the process of loving myself fully is the
beginning of really seeing who I am in and through this broken and
tormented soul of mine. I'm am who I am, nothing can change that.
Altering behavior couldn't change that if my life depended on it.
Sin, flesh, wounds, strife, failure, exhaustion; they still exist
regardless of what I choose to do. But on the other side of the coin,
acceptance, perseverance, freedom, encouragement and unconditional
love still remains. They all seem so polar opposites, but they exist
at the same time. Dividing forces that are fighting for control. The
battle is much bigger than my meager attempt to choose a side, but
whats to decide on anyways? </div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-26906765715675142802013-01-17T11:11:00.005-07:002013-01-17T22:24:30.718-07:00Ferry Corsten - Into The Dark <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">I think you lost your mind</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Or did you fall asleep</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Was your vision closing in</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Did the light play tricks upon you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Was the window shut</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">As you lay on your bed</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Was there someone creeping in</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Did the vapors swirl 'round your hair</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Then slowly, but surely</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Taken away from me</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How will I ever lose my way</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">With your open hand to cling to</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How will I ever lose my way</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">With your open hand to cling to</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">I think I'm breaking through</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">I wake you from this sleep</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">One kiss surely that will do</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Then the ice will melt around you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Then slowly, but surely</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">Bringing you back to me</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How will I ever lose my way</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">With your open hand to cling to</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How will I ever lose my way</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">With your open hand to cling to</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you [there to catch you]</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How will I ever lose my way [lose my way]</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">With your open hand to cling to [hand to cling to]</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How can you fall into the dark [into the dark]</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">When my arms are there to catch you [there to catch you]</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">How will I ever lose my way [lose my way]</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;">With your open hand to cling to</span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-41528282788494426842013-01-13T13:24:00.001-07:002013-01-13T13:24:37.821-07:00Sia - I'm In Here<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Owr4U55WpDs" width="480"></iframe>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-65434931286501262912013-01-10T20:37:00.000-07:002013-01-10T20:37:37.938-07:00Touch Atonement<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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In the last week, I've been hungry for
connection. I long for connection through facebook, friends and
people I think about often that I want to connect with. I have often
thought that something was missing in my life until that hole was
full and my connection with others was overflowing. It hasn't been
easy for me this week to not peak on facebook, 'go looking' for
someone to interact with. Much of the resistance to pursue online
connection was to give my undivided attention to my husband and
marriage. That has happened because it has helped me find more
connection with my husband which was the missing factor for quite
some time. However, that hunger I mentioned earlier, I've figured
out that it cannot be filled by merely human connection or even my
husband, but primarily with my God. The one who truly knows me.
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It's interesting, just recently, maybe
2 to 3 weeks ago I changed the subtitle on my blog from 'Flying Free
in My Father's Affection” to, “Finding Myself”. At first,
changing that didn't mean much to me. But now as I look back in the
last couple of weeks, I did it because I wanted a fresh sense of why
I was writing. I wanted to find myself. For the last several years
even, I've felt like I had lost or forgotten who I was. Where I was
going, hence, why I hadn't written a blog in a super long time before
the end of this past year. I almost felt like I didn't even recognize
myself anymore. The blogs that I had written starting in late 2008,
through 2010, was someone I didn't even know anymore. I know that
might sound strange, even bizarre, but that is how I have come to
some pretty profound awakenings as of late.
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I've been reading a book called
Captivating, a beautiful book written by John and Staci Eldredge. The
subtitle explains it perfectly. “Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's
Soul”
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Through the writings of this book, it
has reminded me of where I came from. Sure, of course I remember
where I came from, but details and parts of my past that I had
blocked from my memory have come back. In a real sense, it has been
painful, but edifying. Because I know I don't live back there
anymore. Finding my womanhood with the people I was surrounded with
as a child is something that I don't ponder on much anymore. I mean
yeah, waves of pain are associated with my childhood, but there are
also things that had happened that has made me the person that I am
today. Good things!
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This book has really helped me tap into
who I am. In the truest sense of the word, “unveiling” the
mystery of who I am as a woman. Where I've come from, where I am, and
where I am going. I thought for a while there, that it wasn't good
for me to always reflect on the past, or worry and think about the
future because the only moment that exist, is now. Which, by the way
is a very accurate and true statement/thought. However, I think as
far as reflecting on the past and especially on my marriage and
dating years with my husband, has reminded me greatly of who I was
and how much in love I was with my husband, and how that has made a
huge impression on my heart today. I tried to separate myself from
that girl 7.5 years ago, but I've figured out that I fully can't. I
still have the same body, but older. I'm not 21 anymore and I've
matured on every angle in my life. From knowledge to knowhow, to
objects of desire and different perspectives of life happenings. But
who doesn't grow and mature in their 20's? I'd at least hope everyone
does... If maturity and growth doesn't happen, there's definitely
some major problems. Sure, through time we all change, but what I
have come to understand about myself is the one thing that still
remains; my hunger for connection will always be apart of who I am.
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What I am getting at here is trying to
wrap my heart around this hunger to know myself. To be connected with
who I am, and mainly who Father see's me as I am. I've lost that for
so long it feels like. I tried reaching out to others and using
facebook as a tool to fill that void. Thinking that through others, I
could find myself. Which in some cases, did help me. Though, this
hunger was still longing for a deeper connection. A connection that
could only be satisfied by God. Something that I haven't personally
had in a long time. Sure, I believe in God, but my relationship with
him has significantly decreased in value other the past couple of
years. My seek to find that connection with other things and in
others has only hindered me overall.
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So, in many aspects I've awakened. I've
come alive. My marriage has come alive. My life is as it should be.
Yes, I struggle daily with shit that is happening, and no I have not
yet arrived or have it all figured out, nor do I think that is fully
possible. But these bumps and boulders in my path is what moves me to
grow, change and expand my horizons in hopes to fully embrace this
thing called life, and to fully
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be-come who I am in God with true
acceptance and love that comes with being me. </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13882096399249594635noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4537325088305666113.post-26545262347984695092013-01-08T22:29:00.001-07:002013-01-08T22:29:14.085-07:00Take a Moment<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Leaves are falling on my window</div>
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Turning cold in fire, with the wind
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I lost my way, where do I go now?</div>
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This looks just like the road I came
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Take a moment to live</div>
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Take a moment to cry</div>
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Take a moment to love and don't ask why</div>
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Moment to live, moment to love,
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Steady hand can point me somewhere</div>
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I'm all the wiser for the many wrongs
I've done</div>
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I've found some courage in my battles
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Never leads me far from where I'm meant
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Take a moment to live</div>
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Take a moment to cry</div>
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Take a moment to love and don't ask why</div>
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My heavy heart, it pulls me</div>
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And I know you will be there</div>
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Take a moment to live</div>
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Take a moment to cry</div>
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Take a moment to love and don't ask why</div>
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It's been an uphill battle. I can't say
when and where it really began. I guess you could say, its been a
long time coming. It happened so gradually and I can't stop but think
where I was when it all came on. Its so damn hard to stay neutral
through this process of healing.
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Aside from that, I'm really having a
hard time deciphering between who I am to God verses religion. I have
to say, sometimes it feels like a blurred line for me right now that
makes me super uncomfortable. Though I can't deny that God/Father has
His hand in my life, I don't want that to turn into something fake
and lame as religion tends to make God to be. On a personal aspect,
He has been real to me, not in a forceful way, but in a sweet
effortless and loving way. I can't stop thinking of what He has been
doing in my heart. Something so profound and real. Words can't really
do justice to what this time has been like for me. A roller coaster
ride that has not stopped in days. Though it feels like its slowing
down, I feel like I've been on it for so long that I am afraid to get
off once it stops. Though I know I need to. I must, in order to keep
going.
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My marriage has been on the rocks for a
while. Though I know in the last couple of days, it has found its way
back to solid ground, which I know this is where I am supposed to be.
Not only has a break from Facebook helped, but taking breaks from
other things has really helped the process of focusing on what was
missing in my marriage, which was mostly me. And it has seemed to be just what I needed.
But every day for the last week has brought its share of fatigue and
struggle. Mornings and nights are the hardest. I feel like I am more
susceptible to dark and uncanny thoughts that I have to constantly
fight off, a juggernaut if you will, when I am tired and weak. Though
I know in my heart this all will pass and life will get better. Just
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