I just experienced the worst pain I have felt in the longest time. It feels like a hot festering sore that derives one to madness. I hurt some friends of mine because of some weakness and frustration that I was dealing with according to where I spiritually stand with the Lord and with these brothers and sisters! I don’t want to lead in to any great detail, but I know now what I am capable of and how quickly that I can lead to destruction. Its like finding out you like to smoke even if you know that it is not good for you. Not that I smoke or anything, but the nicotine in the cigarettes make you crave it and consequently, that crave could lead to lung cancer. I know what I was doing could lead to great destruction, but something about the issue led me to lets just say, lose my cool. I understand that we all have weaknesses in our lives, and some struggle with these weaknesses on a daily bases, (me too). I can’t start to understand the depth of pain I put on these people in my time of weakness and not having the mind of Christ. It happens so quickly and then I can’t take anything that I did or said back. But, there is hope in forgiveness and a fresh start; I am now experiencing. 2 Corinthians 12:8-10 “Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
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I am learning how to live loved by God and embrace His grace that will help me fly in freedom. Let the wings of grace take me, all of me, for who I am and not for who I should be.