It seems like God opened a door for me to leave Falcon, the school that Jon and I work for down here in Costa Rica! Let me start from the beginning…
Since December when we went back to the states for Christmas break, I didn’t want to come back here! We had a great break and it was hard to leave my family and friends again. I have always had close ties to my family and way of life in America, and it was very hard to leave that again, knowing that this job that I hated because of the way things were run and how the administration treated their staff. However, I felt we had an obligation to fulfill and Jon wanted to finish the year there, so we came back. Time went by, and I suffered through and finally decided about two weeks ago that I would stay. I had a pretty good gig going on as it was. My class was very small and I loved the fact that I could do anything I wanted in my class. So, I convinced myself that this fact alone was worth staying for until the end of the year. I also just let God have it, and asked him if he wanted me to stay that he would allow me to see the worth in it and what was going on, even through all the junk that was continually happening. Then things took a desperate turn this past week. Last Tuesday I had a meeting with the administration and the preschool teacher. They told me they were going to combine my class, which is the Nursery class, with the Preschool class. Therefore, I would no longer have my own classroom or be the Lead Teacher of my class, but either be an assistant for the Preschool teacher or co-teach. I was shocked. Just when I was getting used to the idea of staying and being in my class with my students, they were planning on taking that away from me! I wasn’t about to sit back and be okay with this, when in the first place I was beginning to have peace with my current situation and they demolished that! I now felt the freedom and release from God to get the hell out of dodge. So I started that process! I gave my resignation last Wednesday, and my last day at the school will be March 31st. After a lot of thinking and processing this decision beforehand, I finally have a really good reason to leave, and a legitimate one. Beforehand, I wanted to quit because of the trash and usual drama that was thrown on the staff. We are treated like children from the administration, and were rarely respected by people who ran the show. It wouldn’t take long for anyone to get tired of that on a day-to-day basis. But, again, that wasn’t enough for me to quit, so I thought I would suffer through! It seemed like once I finally had peace with my current situation, another massive change would demolish that. I see it as a way that God came in and said, okay, now you can leave! I am excited. I don’t know what I am going to do with the rest of our time here once I am not working, but, I know one thing, I will no longer have to put up with the junk there anymore, and that alone is such a relief. I’m free and I flying away in peace. Thank you Father! I will keep my blog updated on what is to come later!
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