Sunday, May 16, 2010

I Need To Trust So the Rest Will Come



I find myself always getting antsy and nervous right before a move. I guess I should be used to moving by now. It seems like we have moved almost every year since we got married. Though it always seems to surprise me how my reactions to things in my life never seem to change and even though the situations fluctuate, my attitude stays the same. I get nervous and anxious when Jon is looking for a new job or when a big move is happening. When I feel caught up in the moment and feel the need to want to control things when it’s out of my hands to control.

Why is uncertainty something we are trained not to embrace? Instead if feels as though we are caught up in the pulling and tugging of necessity in order to feel a sense of control in ours situations. It seems like our nature is built on the certainty and security that we seek in order to sustain some sense of control in our lives, when maybe, it isn’t in our power to sustain such security and certainty. And maybe this is not the way we were meant to live, but quite the opposite. Maybe our sense of security is not found in what happens in this world and our situations, but when we see that there is a greater need and working that is happening outside of our control.

My friend Kent said the following:

“What we are in need of is to allow the Spirit to rework everything in us. We have been so shaped to live by law and control and the spirit is the absolute opposite.”

I love where this message is leading; pure and absolute freedom. Where we are set free from being fixated on that which is out of our control and to find that we don’t need to figure everything out at once but trust Father in that which we cannot see or understand, and when we can rest from the wrestling and anxiousness that comes with this obnoxious need to be in control. Once we give way to this, it becomes extremely real, and the realm of control has lost its strength, and the scrambling nature to control things dies because we no longer have chosen to live a life outside of trust.

10 comments:

Nicole said...

"There is a Wind… that wraps itself around the edges of necessity, tugging and pulling until those boundaries become torn and begin to move to the motion of that which is not visible." -- William P. Young

Rich said...

Nicole,

Quoting a friend of mine by the name of Richard...All of the fixed landmarks and sign posts that at that time spelled security for them have been mostly removed, they are being drawn almost compelled to keep going forward, where to they are not certain, and yet an irresistible knowing and gnawing persists, "Just follow Me!"

Rich said...

Nicole,

I was pondering on the title of this piece, "I need to trust so that Rest will come."

Something for you and me and whomever to ponder on...perhaps we're still trying to see a living breathing 4th dimensional reality through a 3rd dimensional mindset? Meaning, what if in being one with (joined to Him) our one and only source of rest, that out of this unfolding revelation flows (much like breathing) a supernatural ability to trust in His ability!

Somehow I see this being so natural vs the emphasis being upon us trying to attain, obtain this elusive trust thing?

Nicole said...

Oh wow, you're right! I don't think us trying to make this happen will get us anywhere... I am just now realizing that it will come naturally and not happen out of forced will or trying to attain it!

Profound thoughts Rich....

Now all I have to do is *stop* trying... :)

Anonymous said...

I have been out of work for almost 7 months And feel anxious all the time in between letting go of controll . The lesson of letting go is a hard one to learn .
John

D3NZ1L said...

good one.......

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