Today I went to work leaving my cell-phone at home. It was tragic! I never leave my phone at home when I leave… but when this happens, I feel naked, or something. I found myself dreading the thought that I actually forgot my phone, it felt like something huge was missing, and I think I am beginning to realize that I am more dependent on it than on anything else. It’s weird how easy it is to rely on a phone because I am constantly thinking that I need to either call someone or someone is trying to call me and I have to be available if that happens. I think maybe the reason why I forgot it today was because maybe God was like, “why don’t you talk to me, I’m right here, you don’t need to dial a number to reach me, I am right here waiting.” Don’t get me wrong, I think cell-phones are a HUGE blessing and I am so privileged to be able and dial anyone up anywhere, at anytime and that is a very good thing, unless this dependency becomes more important than on our dependency we have on Father, because it is so easy to call up a friend and say I have an issues and I need to talk about this, instead of first calling on Father instead. I absolutely believe Father has put people in our lives to share things with, but, if that become more important than talking to him than that can become a problem. Maybe God wanted me to forget my phone today because He knew how much I really needed to talk to him. I really do think God wanted me to forget my phone because maybe he thought, “well, if Nicole leaves her phone at home today, then that will give her a chance to actually talk to me.” Relying on my phone as the main source of communication to the outside world is fine and I don’t have a problem with it, but depending on Father and the open communication we have between us has taken me places I can only imagine going! This journey with Father only happens if I truly depend on him to guide me and help me along the way!
Not all who wander are aimless, especially those who seek truth beyond tradition, beyond definition, beyond image. -- Mona Lisa Smile
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