Thursday, June 19, 2008

First Comes Trust, Then Comes Provision

I have a story for you about Father’s full grace and mercy…

This week I have been struggling with trusting God, and as a result having fear take precedence in my life. We just made the big move and that basically took our entire paycheck last week and pretty much had nothing left over because of bills that we paid that were still waiting to clear. It has been an on edge scary time financially for us. We had approximately 40 dollars to live on for one week until he gets paid, well I had to get gas and got just enough to get us around town and the rest went to groceries, and let’s just say it didn’t last. Well, once I did those two things, we are penniless. On another note, we were waiting for one of my husband’s clients, who he was doing contract work for prior to our move and still needed to pay him for work he did for this guy months ago and he kept putting Jonathan on the back burner and not paying him, well, Jonathan has told him that he will not do anymore work for the guy until he pays up. So, this week has been really stressful not knowing where the money was going to come from. Well, all I could think about this morning was how we were going to make it for one more week, and really stressing and worrying about it, and so I went to visit Jon at a park near his work and released my angst about this issue, let’s just say I wasn’t trusting in Father and only allowing the fear to take place and not allow the H.S. to do his work in me! My kind and amazing husband simply said, it’s out of our hands and in God’s and now we must trust Him. It isn’t really that hard to understand, but actually trusting Father and giving my entire burden to Him was harder said than done! While I walked back home I prayed and said, ‘okay God, I will trust you, I will give this to you. It’s too much for me to handle by myself.’ So, I did! Talk about releasing I was beginning to just live with the reality that we are under and being okay with it. Just this afternoon as I was chilling Jon calls me and tells me that his client is going to send the check today and we will receive it tomorrow! I was completely shocked because we weren’t expecting that! It hit me, as he was telling me that, and once I decided to trust Father and get out of his way, Father was able to move forward and provide! How cool is that! He is always filled with outstanding grace and mercy!

PRAISE HIM!

6 comments:

Bino Manjasseril said...

Nicole, A very touching story. Praise Him!

Aida said...

Great story, Nicki, and I can definitely relate. I'll be moving along doing just great. Things will come along and my trust level is high but then along comes that zinger that throws me off balance. Then, I begin to think that I've gotten nowhere at all in learning how to trust.

Trusting Father is very difficult at times. It seems like we have many opportunities to grow deeper in our understanding that he loves us and can be trusted. I haven't learned the lesson yet so I have to go back often for refresher courses.

Aida

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