Monday, July 14, 2008

In My Daddy’s Arms

Today I woke up with tears streaming down my face in thought of my dad who passed away when I was ten. It was quite a surprise because I haven’t thought about him in a very long time. He has always been a constant memory, but lately, he hasn’t crossed my mind in a while for some reason. It really hit me when I was dreaming of him and he seemed so real. In my dream I saw him driving a van, and my mom and I were with him. We stopped and my mom got out of the van to go somewhere and I remember stepping out going around to the driver’s door and opening it and telling him I didn’t want him to go. I knew he was going to die. It was so heart wrenching. So vividly real, how I could feel so much pain in a dream. He never said anything in my dream to what I remember, but all I can really remember is him holding me… I picture my heavenly Daddy like this, when I am going through something tough or hard, he will come to me and hold me silently, just the thought of him holding me is the most peaceful and warmest place that has ever existed. The truth in my Father’s eyes says that he will never leave me, and the touch of his hand says he will catch me if ever I fall! He says it best when he says nothing at all! I am given a song from Alison Krauss that speaks exactly what Father is telling my heart through this dream that I had…

"It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all"

Thank you my heavenly Daddy for giving me this gift of knowing you and being with you. You are priceless and precious to my heart that I will never let go of…
I love you…


Laurie said...

Life is so painful. I could try to wax philosophical about that but it's just the simple truth. I hate to admit it but I spend way too much time trying to run from the pain instead of resting in Daddy's arms and enjoying His strength and presence.

I love you.

Aida said...

Nicki, this is beautiful. You are such an awesome woman and I know both of your Daddies (Daddy God and your natural Daddy) are looking at you and they're bursting with pride and love for you.

I'm so glad Daddy brought us together. You've been a great friend and a wonderful encouragement.

Love and big HUGS,

Bino Manjasseril said...

My wife lost her father few years ago and every once in a while she see him in her dreams and the next day she is either sad or happy depending on what she saw in the dream. So I can relate to the pain you experienced in the dream.
You are his daughter, you are also the daughter of your heavenly Father and they love you for who you are...

rob horton said...

thanks for sharing this nicole. i am thankful that you are finding comfort and more in relationship with our father.

grace and peace,

Anonymous said...

I love your poem! I enjoyed reading some of your site this morn. You are a real sweet girl - glad we are neighbors and, oh yeah, business partners also!

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