Monday, June 23, 2008

Growing

Why can situations turn a good day sour? It is amazing how circumstances can turn ones gladness into mourning! It reminds me of the wind and how it comes so unexpectedly, and all of a sudden the wind is here hard and strong; you don’t even see it coming. Like a loved one passing, or things that one is looking forward to, suddenly fall through. I guess having high expectations can cause a hard fall once those expectations aren’t met to the standard you set them. I have done this several times in my life, thinking and expecting something to happen and it doesn’t, then I am wondering what I did to stop whatever it was from happening. I ask God sometimes what I did to prevent things, was I not trusting Him enough? Was I using my eyes and flesh to only to see what I thought was necessary? Today was the day we were supposed to get the check! It never came. I am left in dark without understanding. But doesn’t Father tell me not to lean on my own understanding, but acknowledge him and he will direct my path?! So I have read in scripture; but wow, this can be so tough when it is actually is put to the test. I have to think that Father allowed this to happen for me to grasp what real trusting must be like in order to rely completely on him. I was reading the word today, and it hit me, I am a worry wart!


Matthew 6:25-27 +33-34

Therefore, I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink, or about your body, what will you wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all of these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow. For tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own.


What else can I do but trust ultimately on Father and He will do the rest! Provide. God is my provider and sometimes that is so hard to keep on the forefront of my mind. It’s so easy to take the reins away and run for it!

I am not known for my riches or material items, not for my looks or hairstyles, I am not known, at all, but only by the one who made me, precious and rare like a field of wild flowers that turns into bloom once a year. I am nothing, but something only to God, who finds good in a girl who doesn’t have anything to give but a hurting heart that needs to be filled up by her maker and will then become renewed and full again. Priceless is my Father who cares and loves unconditionally, and understands what we go through in every circumstance.

4 comments:

Lindsay said...

I am so sorry that you did not receive the check that was due to you. I hope that it is right around the corner! I am learning it is so much easier to say one wants to trust in God than it is to sometimes put it into practice. But I love how you are taking this opportunity to lean on Father. I LOVE the last paragraph that you wrote!!!! Thanks for sharing all you wrote.

How is the new home? Do you all know anyone else who lives by you? How was your first weekend there?

Manuela said...

Hey. Thanks for your transparancy. I tend to be a worry-wart too. It was a good reminder to me... each day has enough trouble of its own and God is here with me today, now. I so need Him. I also understand about dissapointment and let downs ...It's so great how God takes everything to show us himself and how wonderful He really is. We are hidden in Christ. It's such a relief he knows us well and loves us so much and always provides. Thanks for sharing. Will keep you in my prayers. Hope you're enjoying your new home... Would love to chat. My e-mail is on my blog I believe. Peace, friend

Nicole said...

Hello Linsay! Thanks for your kind and amazing words! The practice of trusting in Father is really hard, but I can really tell I am growing and I love that! I love our new home! I am getting settled in really well and liking the change! First week was easy, we didn't have all of our things so it was really laid back and enjoyable and learning my way around the new town!

Manuela! Thanks for coming by, I would love to email you! I am glad this post touched you, Father sure has a way to use things in our lives to touch others and I just love that!

In Freedom, Nicole!

Bino M. said...

Nicole, I am hoping and praying that the situation you are in will work for your good some way. I don't know how. But it has happened that way in my own life. I couldn't solve the puzzle by my own but at a later time I have realized that how amazingly God provides and leads us. I will keep you both in my prayers.

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